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* i love you so much *

 April 5, 2009 • No Comments

yes! these 5 words mean something to me. and i know, these words mean something to you, too. (u know who you are) now that our relationship is over, i want to tell you that i didn’t regret all the things that happened between us. i loved you. that’s true. and i hope, you’ll believe me. because, it sucks to know that even now that we’re done, u still can’t - at least try - to believe me. i know that you are hurting right now. but believe me or not, im hurting too. all the things you’ve said marked an unseen scar on my heart. im sorry if i’ve done things in the past to hurt you. and i admit, i haven’t been a good girlfriend to you. but there’s one thing i want to tell you, i loved you. even if you think i didn’t give you the love that you wanted, im still here. i don’t want you to say goodbye. because i want the two of us to be friends. i guess, you don’t like that idea. and its 0kay with me. i won’t force you to accept me as your friend. and if you want to tell me something, you can tell me directly. you dont have to text my friends or what. coz it really hurts me! by the way, DONT DARE COMPARE ME! coz, #1, im not like her. and if you think she’s better than me, fine. i won’t argue with that. #2, i am what i am. getz? so, don’t force me to hate you more.

that’s all. waa! kulang pa pala yan. yoko na ilagay ung iba. sa matamaan, bahal na. kung magalit ka man skin dahil jan, xur. il take it. quits na tau kung ganun mn. hahaha..

LAST MINUTE EPIPHANY [my version of ST. CATHERINE OF SIENA CLASS SUMMARY] PART 1

 March 11, 2009 • No Comments

 June 17, 2008- tuesday. First day of school. 

 

I woke up, took a bath and  ate my breakfast. I did my everyday routine except that, for me, its UNUSUAL. I had to wear my school uniform and prepare my things - duh, i forgot! Its the FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!

  ”Perfect! I wasn’t prepared for this”, i thought. I got very anxious and i don’t know what to expect of our first day. After a minute of thinking, i gathered my things and placed them in my bag. I got ready for school and prayed. TAKE NOTE: there’s no backing out! :(
SCHOOL ZONE!

And so, there I was, making my way through the crowd, searching for familiar faces. I can’t see any familiar face, all I could see were ALIENS. I kept on searching and Alas! I saw my former classmates in front of the Prefect of Discipline’s Office. We screamed, hugged and laughed as we see our other classmates and friends. I admit, we were like kids but it was so much fun!

Is it really FUN? or is it HELL? I think, its both. We had our flag ceremony and after that, [proceed to the classroom] When we entered our so-called “SECOND HOME”, it was so divided.  One side: NDGSC students, Other side: NDL students. 

(I guess, only few knows why i mentioned two schools. It’s because of the merging of NDGSC and NDL.)

 

 

—> PART 1. an2k na aqu. haha

“YES” man. :D

 February 28, 2009 • No Comments

earlier this day, i watched a m0vie entitled “THE YES MAN”. it was inspiring yet also intriguing. when i was still in 1st year, we had a subject values education and we used a book: The Seven Habits of Highly Effective Teens” by Sean Covey. i remembered the YES MAN - he say’s YES to EVERYTHING! and that sounds so frustrating. how can you say YES to everything if you don’t want to do that certain thing?

and do you know what frustrates me more? its the fact that i’m trying to be the YES MAN. i don’t know why i bother to try. all i know is i want to please everybody and be accepted. YES, i know i’m accepted. but its not what i want.

in the movie, jim carrey got accepted by the people around him. he was loved because he was game for anything. he would do every thing you ask him to do. but it’s not what i want.

i keep saying YES. i learned how not to say NO. adventure- that’s what i got. but that’s not what i want.

YES! i know what i want. i want to be accepted and be loved with who i am and what i can give. now, i am learning how to think before saying YES -and of course, saying NO - because one decision could either ruin or make my life better.

in the movie, jim carrey learned how to say YES and NO and when to use these two words. in the end, he became happy of what he have and was contented of his life with the love of his life.

i hope in the end, i would also be happy and be contented. because i don’t want to be a YES MAN! i want to decide for myself. and live my life as happy as i could. :D